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[eudemonism]

@Sophia1 I'm constantly battling this nightmarish scenario which is fuelled by the outside world. And literally there's no defeating it. There's only struggling against it or going along with it.

[Sophia1]

Hello @eudemonism 

As you would have worked out for yourself ...I am still on here briefly..

Can I ask you?

What did you enjoy doing as a young lad?

What did you get up to?

Am curious....

Will check in on you soon..

Take care friend...

Sophia 🐾💛💚💜

[Sophia1]

Hello @Former-Member 

I did seek out the thread that you tagged me in..

I feel more comfortable talking to you here...

I also understand if you are not able to stretch yourself this far...

You have so much going on...some of which I do relate to...

Please do take some time out to look after you...

It took me a long time to realise that I as in myself as a person deserve just as much care as those whom I am caring for or concerned about..

Would love to keep in touch only if you can stretch this far without any pressure though..

I do understand as I do not wander far from here these days and do not visit frequently either..

Please put @Former-Member  first...

feeling for you with all of the pressure that you find yourself dealing with as well as wanting you to take care of you at the same time...

Sophia 🐾💜💚💛

I also sincerely thank you for all of your supports with my posts...💜

[eudemonism]

Oh @Sophia1 i enjoyed burning off energy, trying to get my life together, trying to set myself up with a future, trying to acquire my neeeds... i was a bit of a delinquent there for a stage... tried bmx, fishing, guitaring, stamp collecting, plus dealing with the normal teenage/child stuff... dealing with my role in the family... there was alot of stuff i forced myself to do/felt uncomfortable doing... trying to impress parents...

[eudemonism]

@Appleblossom I'm really noticing the effects/stages of the depot injection... the first week or two is horrible/totally debilitating... sort of come good in the last two weeks and then bam they give me another dose...

[Former-Member]

I totally understand @Sophia1  and when I want to talk to you, I will do so here.

Thanks so much for your sage advice, always sound, wise and well thought through.

I will, of course, continue to subscribe to your thread so I dont miss any news from you when you do visit.

Please stay well and continue to do what you need to do to keep yourself afloat and then on to thrive.

Sherry 🌺

[Appleblossom]

Dear @Sophia1 It is always good to see you and read your posts.  They have a calming feel for me.

Hi @Former-Member 

 

@eudemonism Having the abilty to observe the effects of meds calmly can be a step to mastery.  I focus on the negative effects to get me through hard times when I am lowering the dose.

Take Care of yourselves 

[eudemonism]

@Sophia1 going to bring up alone time vs social time with pysch therapist next session because i find there is a huge difference between being in solitude with one's self and being with/around others there is a huge difference actually both important but need to work out the mechanisms behind it/know when to put my make up on

I crave solitude/need solitude but also crave socialising/need socialising you know drifting in and out of independent and achieving my personal goals and needing/wanting support and being in team player mode...

I would love a wife../partner.. Because it takes so much focus off of thinking how am i gonna get through today and what am i going to do today...

[outlander]

@Sophia1 

[Sophia1]

Dearest @outlander 

Thank you for thinking of me as always...

Leaving calming photographs of retreats were beautiful to find..

I do hope that you have some relief in your life.

I have no idea where you post these days...as is the same for others...

I am not on here very often at all now....

when I am I follow through with the "bell"  

I find myself only pressing support...

I do not have enough words for everyone...I have run out of umph for everyone else...using it all up in reality..

I am slowly progressing with my physical fitness again after temporary setback from last operation ...Now that I am going out more and am on my feet more I am in more pain again...this is to be expected of course...

Much is happening with both sons...different for each of course...

Our build has finally commenced after all this time of renovating other property then sale...

so very busy with selections etc...exciting

will be relieved to get out of the halfway house with all the boxes and rediscover stuff from storage...

I will definitely be doing some serious culling though...have realised using basics now in the halfway house just emphasises how much we have of too much...

I just wish that I could have an open.... signposted as come and take what you need.. for those who genuinely cannot afford and would appreciate it...I usually give to op shops but have heard the volunteers have first pick and then put rest out for sale...not happy with that..

What have you been enjoying of late? 

Art?Photography?Reading? Are you still watching outlander?

I do hope that prospects have lifted for you...

Not wanting to say too much ....as unsure what is going on in your life at present...

It is very difficult responding to people with whom I genuinely want to support when I have no idea what is happening in their lives currently..

I am fully aware these days that it is vital that I put myself first...alternative being not a self ....

a hard wake up call....

as such a young carer I cannot help myself ....please hope that you are taking time out for you...enough times....doing things that are fun...

I will be quiet now...

💜🐾💛