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I haven’t been on sane for what seems like ages. I confess, I forgot it existed. Now I remember and I’ve come back at 1:30am, afraid to sleep.

There are new boards and everything. I like that.

I’m here at this time because I’m afraid to sleep. I have DID, PTSD and now my biggest health issue, I’m alcoholic... and still drinking. DID makes quitting complicated but right now that’s not the main thing. I just lost motivation. Being shitfaced has become my life goal. 

Wonder if this will be deleted. I forget the details of rules here. Sorry mods.


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@Rayne. Welcome back. I love your avatar picture. It's a very positive image. So hoping that will reflect your future soon.
I have had PTSD - now treated but live with major depression. I learnt to self medicate with alcohol. You are not alone here on the forum re: alcohol.
If you have a look around there are threads regarding alcohol use that members have written.
I've given up a few times. And relapsed. Currently alcohol free. After the first week or so it gets easier.
Please if you do decide to give up alcohol, please do it with your gp or at a clinic. Withdraw from alcohol on your own can be dangerous.
But maybe for now, rather than focus on givingup alcohol - you may need some ffriendsand uunderstanding - without judgement. I believe you will find that here on the forum.
So very impressed that you have posted here and been so honest.
Try and be gentle with yourself. You are doing the best you can at the moment.
I hope we can talk further another day.
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If I remember right you are also a brilliant dude with lotsa talent.

So I hope some better more interesting goals show up shape shifting in the light among the trees ....

Smiley Happy

Good to see you @-Rayne-


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Hi @-Rayne,

Welcome back to the forums and it's great that you can be open and talk realistically about your struggles with alcohol and other things. That old demon drink helps to numb things out for a while, doesn't it? And as you rightly say, it robs one of motivation and energy to try something else to move forward.

I'm sure you will get plenty of support here and chats with people who are using alcohol to cope with mental illness to some degree.

Take a look at the forum guidelines here when you have 10 minutes and you will be up to date with everything. We can overlook SF but other profane words may be edited Smiley Happy

Take care,


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@-Rayne- Welcome back. I share the DID experience with you. Good to see you around.

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@Rayne. I'll just tag @TAB in here too. He may also be interested in your thread here.