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Hello @eth
That is fine re tagging...I know that it is easy to forget a name if someone has not posted on a thread for a while...
Looking after cat scenario....
I know that you have had great understanding from son and family in the past...
What do you think of approaching it from...
thanking them for being so very understanding all of this time in relation to your NDIS situation....how that is now allowing you to start getting out of the house....a work in progress in settling your anxiety.. you have thought about the cat situation and would feel far more comfortable if someone was looking after their cat that might need an urgent visit to the vets...there are house sitting organisations where people would love the opportunity to stay in such a setting as their place...
a gentle reminder that you have been through so much to get where you are....only the beginning of your journey...how grateful you are for all of their support...however you are aware of your limitations and thinking of the welfare of an older animal that would need more attention..
Just a thought...
Oh that sounds difficult as I know with anxiety we need to have things sorted sooner...
You have spent some time with sil mum and enjoyed her company...
perhaps a nice card wishing her a wonderful trip..bon voyage...a quiet chat..
what is most important is that regardless of everyone else your health comes first for you..
there are other options that she has and they are not your concern..
I don't mean to come across sternly or bossy...
I have had these words said to me over the years and realisation sunk in heavily when my health deteriorated...
How am I?
still all over the place really..
I am not sure that it has even registered that we have sold the house and moved into rental place yet...
Perhaps it won't the time will come when new house is built we move again ...yeah....and I shall just settle myself there in a new chapter of my life...
So in many ways I am still in a holding pattern as I have been for so long...
Thanks for asking dear Eth...
I know that I don't get to talk to you very much these days...just my headspace...stretching myself too far over too many threads...
sticking to talking with people with whom I feel comfortable ...including yourself... xxlove Sophia
Hi again everyone, back online after some more sleep. Waking up about every two hours at night, and finding it hard to go back to sleep straight away, means it takes about 12 hours to accumulate eight hours sleep. Was running on about four hours sleep a night during the busier times last week. Glad to be getting more rest this week, even if it means the longer stretch of time to get it.
@eth, I posted earlier in the morning that I had not done anything aside from making coffee before coming online. But since waking after this last recent sleep for the night, I made the bed, opened the blinds and turned on some good mood music before coming here. Glad to be starting to get into a habit of doing at least a few things before coming online, as you (and your psychologist) suggested.
Sorry that bro was really not helpful with that comment about your anxiety, and that you are still faced with having to tell sil's mother yourself about being unable to look after her cat when she is away. A sick cat that needs a lot of visits to the vet when you don't drive, and lashes out when you try to pick her up, is clearly not something you can manage really. I wish bro had been more understanding about that. He seems to be such a great brother in so many ways, but I guess no-one's perfect. Hope bro's friend comes through to look after the second house and cat. I seem to remember that where you are has a semi-communal aspect. Any neighbours that might be able to help if the friend doesn't come through? From what you have said about how unwell the cat is, and that sil is already asking the tough questions about it's future, I too wonder, as did @CheerBear, whether the cat will even make it to next year and the time when your loved ones go overseas. Hugs for the anxiety you have been feeling about this, and for the tough aspects of therapy. But happy to hear your trips out with support workers three times a week are proving really helpful.
@Appleblossom, the video viewing is good. Inspiring to see so many other artists' work, and a good change of pace from focussing most of the time on my creative practice. Hope your day at the zoo is great.
@Dadcaringalone, really glad to hear of the improvements with your son and the new meds. Wonderful that you had such a good break in Bali, and were inspired to return to the gym while there. Socialising too sounds great for you, and being able to enjoy such things while caring for son seems likely to be very helpful to your own wellbeing as well, and therefore your capacity to deal with son's issues. Glad to hear you will be taking regular breaks to maintain your own mental health too. By the way, did you have any luck with fixing your settings so that you don't get too many email notifications?
@CheerBear, reassuring to hear that you like my long posts. Sometimes I try to keep them shorter, but it's great to feel free enough here to express myself at some length, and to be able to respond fulsomely to others.
Happy to hear you will be getting a bit of down time today after your appointment. Enjoy!
@Sophia1, your posts appeared as I was drafting this message. Hope today treats you well.
@outlander, same with your post. Sending more kind wishes for your dental appointment today.
I've got about half an hour before I need to get ready and leave for my physio appointment. If anyone is around and feels like a bit of chat, I'm here.
