I'm not going to accept your apology lil Sis @outlander
because its not necessary. You're not a menace, but a beautiful, kind, caring person who is hurting so much right now, and that's OK, even though its painful and frustrating. At least you're here with us, people who love you no matter what, people that want you in their lives because you bring love and joy to them.
Not knowing how to change is OK. I don't either. But I have to try to trust in the process, trust that some of the things that I do are enough to point me in the right direction.
I understand how hard it is to like yourself. You see only imperfections and flaws. Nobody is perfect in this world, and it would be a pretty boring place if they were. Imperfection means you've survived many battles, you've been shaped by circumstances and experiences. These have made you who you are, but they aren't permanent nor do they define you.
Try to let all the feelings wash over you. Let them go by. They aren't worth holding onto. And change will come. Maybe not when or how you want, but you'll know things are different
