Exercise and Goal Setting

[Shaz51]

hello @MoonGal, @CannonSalt, @Former-Member, @Mazarita, @Appleblossom , lots of exercise yesterday , rest day today , soo hot up here ,

[MoonGal]

Hey @Shaz51 - yes the weather has been brutal in so many spots, rest is important too. 🙂

[Shaz51]

yes @MoonGal and i think my kidney is saying rest up and i have sinus tonight

[Appleblossom]

That was a great suggestion by @CannonSalt to cover yourself with GP.

Did you see the post he made about the article warning of people faking it?

Bloody Hell .. I have had the situation where I have been accused ... doomed if you do and doomed if you dont ...

 if I do my exercises I must be fit and nothing wrong ... and if I dont ... then pain and neck issues are my own stupid fault cos I am too lazy to do prescribed exercise.  Hmmm.

I love your sense of humour ... keep starting ... you go, girl

My 70 yr old friend accepts a "girl" in jest ... hope you dont mind.

Walking yesterday ... gardening and vac today.

[Former-Member]

Hi all...

Missed this thread. It is safe for me here.

I'm struggling... In more ways than one.

Last week I went to yoga once and a 1.5km Swim. Headaches stopped me from going to yoga twice 😞 I haven't ran in weeks. I don't know if I like running anymore... I will keep trying to wake up early & BAM be motivated & not be sleep deprived from anxiety &/or have a headache. I don't know why I am trying though... I feel expectations. I have people on my Facebook from the running club I went to in 2014. I deleted about 9 at the start of the year, but still have about 15. They all know & seemingly adore the ex friend who traumatised me. Part of the reason I don't want to run is because of her. She is at all the fun runs, often winning. I just never want to see her again. I don't know. Nothing makes sense in my life at the moment, but yoga. I feel so alone. I'm going through so much in my head that my visits with psychiatrist & psychologist are not enough to sort through it all. I might get through the initial bad withdrawal stages of reducing antipsychotic and then start going to yoga three times a week. It is so nice not having personal bests to beat like in running. I have often felt paranoid about people seeing me running - photographing me - although never saw anyone - and getting told if I can run I can work... Sorry for rambling... I will be more supportive in the future. I'm just needed to offload. I spent the weekend crying & in heated discussion with my partner. I sent an email to my psychologist, but don't expect a response. I see her on Thursday.. I'm rambling again. Hot yoga tomorrow will hopefully help...

Namaste

[Mazarita]

Namaste, @Former-Member, good to see you here. 

Sorry you are really struggling at the moment and sending hugs for the tough weekend you have had. Have you already starting reducing your anti-psychotic? Very glad you are finding yoga to be meaningful and of benefit through this difficult time and that you had a long swim as well. I don't have easy answers to what is going with you but am here listening and just wanted to respond to hopefully relieve your feelings of being alone.

I'm in a big energy slump today too but, through writing consistently about day to day life here on the forum, I am recognising more that there are ups and downs with me just about every week and even in a single day. So for me it's a matter of holding on and riding out the rough patches as patiently as possible and making the most of the better times. It's been very warm, humid, overcast, raining and stormy here for days and I haven't left the flat much. Exercise has gone by the way. But I have to be up and out by 8am tomorrow no matter what. Will be getting a good walk up the beach to my friend's place, then more walking to doctor's appointment, and more after that to visit another friend. It's forecast to be a sunny day so hoping all will work as planned. It will be my first full day out of the flat for a long time. Usually I just go out for one to three hours at a time and then retreat back home to recover.

I'm not sure how to respond to your current loss of interest in running. There's a part of me that feels you perhaps have a tendency to push yourself too hard and beat yourself up over not achieving what you set out to do. That side of my thoughts is somewhat relieved that you may be easing up on yourself. Another part of me is sorry you feel disengaged at the moment from something that has brought a lot of focus and sense of achievement in the past. I guess that, as with me, the aim could be for some kind of balance? I may be out of line or off the mark here, just throwing out some thoughts based on what I have read from you on the forum.

Sending warm vibes your way.

[Appleblossom]

A few weeks ago I was talking to an exercise person and she was the one who told me what i do is "functional exercise".  Personal Bests were a good idea simply as a way to see how some skill has improved.  The pressure to continually better th last one may be excessive.

Lovely to see you@Former-Member 

Yoga can be good and balanced but I also knew a girl 20 years ago who was part of a group where they all went overboard in doing head stands and all the postures to compete for their guru's affection ... so take it easy on yourself ... steady steady ... keep at it ... but it is your life and your call.

If competition with self or others is too stiff then I guess it is not healthy.  Because my neck pain is constantly with me and is due partly to overwork and trying too hard ..

I am so over setting goals re exercise .. Yes it is important and I have often done it for years, but I have been accused of loving discpline for the sake of it .. and had people getting into my head about it in the wrong way ... I have just completely spat the dummy on it ... that is why I have adopted my current attitude.  My son was doing exercises on the floor during his psychotic break ... yeah mum had been modelling for him as best she could ... I am less needy about doing them now as I have more understanding about how far to push myself, and less flare ups.

The issues of clashes and competitiveness in groups whether they be arts or sports orientated are important.  It has been one of the last things I have been facing up to ... sometimes it is best to work around the issue ... sometimes direct .. sometimes it is better to leave.

We dont always have to be supportive, sometimes saying it as it is is more necessary. We dont want to be addicted to being a little helper .. as then we are probably not aware of what are own motives are .. and are probably less helpful than we hope.

[Former-Member]

Thank you for your thoughtful responses @Mazarita & @Appleblossom....

I am dressed & ready for hot vinyasa yoga...

I just do my best with the asanas (postures) - a lot of students are more flexible & stronger, but I try to remind myself that they have probably been practising regularly for longer. My teacher is very encouraging to me & I put my mat near hers, so that I can get more guidance.

You are spot on re. being too hard on myself when I don't achieve what I want to. I'm going to try to run for enjoyment ~ not breaking PB's & proving myself. It will be hard. I will set my alarm tomorrow, but if I can't get up for whatever reason ~ I will go for a swim or a walk with my partner in the afternoon.

There was more heated discussions with my partner ~ talk of me leaving, due to being triggered daily by the alcoholic. I finally said schizophrenia is a terrible card to be given & leaves you with few options. My best option is being with my partner, even though it can be a stressful living situation. Hopefully the heated discussions will stop for awhile ~ they are very tiring.

I am reducing the dose when we get paid again next Monday...

Namaste,

A

[Former-Member]

Hi all... <br><br>Just an update...<br><br>I've definitely had a rough 4 days &amp; yoga today helped to relieve the stress &amp; tension in my mind &amp; body. <br><br>I hope your busy day @Mazarita is going well. <br><br>How is your yoga practise going @CherryBomb ~ fellow yogi?! I love hearing about it. @NikNik &amp; @Former-Member have you managed to make it to a yoga class? (What is it like being back at work @Former-Member?!) <br><br>I saw on the wall of the studio today that you can get a 12 month membership, which ends up being apx $75 a month ~ payments come out fortnightly. This seems a better option than $130 for 10 classes &amp; I can go three times a week (&amp; try to run 2-3 times a week eventually)....<br><br>I am reading a book called The Body Keeps Score &amp; it is about PTSD &amp; better ways to treat it than standard methods ~ there is a chapter on yoga. I definitely feel it is therapy. <br><br>How are you going @MoonGal?<br><br>Thank you again to @Appleblossom &amp; @Mazarita for making me feel less alone... (Plus my psychologist replied to me! Plus I feel so lucky that she bulk bills me!) <br><br>Namaste all, <br><br>A

[Shaz51]

Hello @Former-Member, @MoonGal, @Appleblossom, @Mazarita, @CannonSalt,

I am getting the FLU today , feeling a bit yuk