@Glisten I still don't know who I am but the fact that other people see these qualities in me I want to be able to believe it. Even hearing them from others i struggle to even process it, like it's so hard to see anything within myself other than anger, frustration and hatred and that's all directed at myself. I can't even explain how much I loathe myself and it's something I know i need to change in order for my recovery to even begin.
I'm hoping that by putting a list up and reading them to myself daily that it'll start to sink in. I'm not what these people have told me for all these years, I'm worthy and I matter and I deserve to feel happiness. I deserve to be here even when I'm having a hard time, it doesn't make me any less worthy of kindness and compassion.
Sending you hugs sweet, you are amazing and a beautiful person ❤️
